Not trying to complain but just need advice

[K78]

As Salam Alaikum muslims

I'm a 21 year old muslim women and I have severe mental problams
well the problam is that I have a split personality...
what that is that I act like a tottally different person without me wanting to
so it's like 2 people in 1...
no it's not a jinn because I have been told so...

okay this other personality is very evil and looks at the world in a different way...
it's affecting my family

questions:

Will I be held to account for the things I say and do while my evil side takes over and I have no control?

My evil side hurts people how do I deal with it?

How should I handle this?

Thanks so much for your help.

[Sally Mahmoud]

May Allah ease your situation and reward you for any suffering that you may be going through..

I cant answer the first question (have you thought of asking a local imam?), but for 2 and 3 all i can say is that it is very important for you to stick to whatever medications you're on .. insha'Allah your being followed by an appropriate medical team, so that you can manage your condition.. Mental illness is very real and very valid, and it's something that you should not be ashamed of. We all get our lot in life.. you have to make the best of it..

Along with that, make duaa when you can. You remember the story of the lady who was epileptic, and she asked the prophet to ask Allah to cure her, and he told her it would be better if she was patient with her condition? Being patient, making duaa, and seeking proper treatment are all so important!

You bring up an interesting discussion- mental disease in the muslim community, and all the different fiqh issues that go along with that, not to mention the social stigmas and what-not. So much room for education in all these areas.. May Allah guide us to what is best..

[HalaTayybah]

Wa alaikum alsalaam sister,
I agree with what Sr. Sally said about 2 and 3.
As for number one, I found some stuff on Islam-QA.com and here are some parts I hope may be of benefit:

Rasulallah said: “The pen is lifted from three (i.e., their deeds are not recorded): the sleeper until he awakes, the child until he grows up, and the insane until he regains his sanity or regains consciousness.” This was narrated by the authors of Sunan and classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in al-Irwa’, no. 297.

"If one was fine sometimes and not at others, then one will be rewarded or punished for whatever one did at the times when her reason was sound."

Wa Allahu A'lam.

I also think you should talk to an Imam or Sheikh who is better equipped to deal with your situation.

Make constant du'a, inshallah!
I'll pray that your situation gets better, inshallah.

[Dawud ibn Yahya]

Some scholars have even come to the conclusion that one is not responsible for what one does when they are angry (enraged). The example used was when a man divorces his wife because he is in a fit of rage about something.

I have worked with the mental health community for several years. There is hope, but remember that you have to work hard at something that everyone else takes for granted.

As the sister said before, continue to seek help, just make sure the source is correct.

On the medication issue, just make sure you are conscious of what medications they are giving you and the cost/benefit ratio of taking vaious medications. Study up on the side effects.

I knew a young girl who had severe anxiety issues. We worked on her for a long time and found light at the end of the tunnel. She is now living a normal (med-free) life according the latest news I recieved. The goal of medication is to help you to not need medication. This might not seem to make sense, but neither do training wheels on a bicycle when you are young, until you try to ride it without them.

I do not know anything about your current mental condition (specifically), nor am I a psychologist. But as for any issue we are having, we turn to Allah and beg Him for his assistance. Though sometimes this can seem futile, it really is the best medicine. Having a sceptical personality, this was always the last thing I would do, seeking the means (tying my camel) first, but forgetting to put my faith in Allah.

And always remember, the best time to do something good is when it is hard to do, that is what makes you strongerand increases your reward. Fasting in the winter, for example, is easier, because the days are shorter and it is cooler. Fasting in the summer when it is 100 degrees or higher and the day is 16 hours seems impossible, but if you can do it, there is more reward.

In closing, the first hadith I memorized, in English was:

Narrated Abu Hurairah that Allah's Messenger (saw) said (close meaning): "He who Allah intends some good for him, will be made to suffer some affliction."

... and there is also the fact that even when a believer stubs his or her toe, they are rewarded for it in the next life.

Da'ud

Buy and read the book, "Don't Be Sad". It is not just for people who are sad and gives advice for many situations.

[sabrun_jamilun]

Those were very good advices from Sr. Sally, Halla & Br. Dawud...

One more suggestion is to make lots & lots of dua'as to Allah especially at the times when it is most accepted like during tahajjud, travelling, rain, etc.. Remember that He[swt] created us & he tests each one of us ... I pray that Allah[swt] cures you and give you & your family abundance of patience...Ameen!

Definately stick to your medication & read "Don't be sad" .. It is a great book.. & if you need any other advices please feel free to ask...Insha Allah! We are siblings in islam :)